Tick tock

Tick tock
Goes the biological clock
Tick tick tick
Tock tock tock

What's that old rhyme?
First comes love
Then comes marriage
Then comes the baby in the baby carriage

Well where's my love?
Where's my marriage?
Cos I'm starting to want that baby in the carriage

My last scare wasn't scary
I knew the line needed to be single
But oh how disappointed I was

I wake up from my dreams
Sad they had to end
Even if it wasn't "perfect"
It still was a happy feeling in there
In my dream

Tick tock
Tick tock
Can't stop the clock
Can't stop the clock

What did I do?

Pidgin for MSN says he doesn't have me added.
I want to know why
Did I do something?
Say something?
Not do or say something?

I'm racking my brain
And I honestly can't think of anything
That would cause him to delete me.

Maybe it was a mistake.
He didn't remove me from Facebook
As far as I can tell, anyway.

What did I do?

Unrequited

Almost makes me want to cry
Who am I kidding?
I do want to cry
But for some reason the tears won't come
The ache inside is there
Laughing at me
Because it won't let me go

On one hand
All that matters is his happiness
Because I care about him so much

On the other hand
Why can't it be me
Who makes him happy?

Sure, there are no wedding bells
Sure, there's only been one date
With me there have been more
But only in the friendship sense
Even though there have been more-than-friendship-touches

I wish, I wish, I wish...
But wishing won't make it come true.

All I can do is wait and hope and live my life in the meantime
And try to remember
That if it is meant to be it will be
And try to believe it

Even though it sounds so trite and hollow

Cougar

I made plans last night
To become someone's belt notch
Twice over
Big, older

He'll be my belt notch
Younger
By far.

I lost my cherry
Before he hit the age
Where BO becomes evident in young boys
Before he knew what sex was
Girls had cooties
And Spongebob Squarepants had just debuted

This should be pretty damn fun