Oxymoron

I am feeling happily sad today
Contentedly melancholic
Not depressed, not manic, but not normal either
If I were feeling better physically
And if the weather was a bit warmer
I would head out to one of my favourite spots -
English Bay -
And just sit and people watch
And drink a cup of tea
And think
And not think

Just be.

That's what I like best
No expectations
No hesitations
No judgments
No hurry
No worry

I'm feeling very un-monkey-like today
I almost like it